Jesus said, “One of you will betray me.” (His disciples asked) “Lord, who is it?” Jesus answered, “The one to whom I give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish.” When he had dipped the piece (Jesus said) “One of you will betray me.” (His disciples asked) “Lord, who is it?” Jesus answered, “The one to whom I give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish.” When he had dipped the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas son of Simon Iscariot. After receiving the piece of bread, (Judas) immediately went out. And it was night (John 13.21b, 25b-26, 30)
Profess often your sins to God…not considering them as cast across the long course of life, but joined in one continued confession.
From Holy Living (IV. Humility, To Increase Humility, 1), 1650, Jeremy Taylor (1613-1667)
Judas took bread from Your hand, O Lord,
then (and what, I oft wonder, did he think, feel about this, Your merciful-kindness?)
swiftly went out into the darkness;
a mantle covering his disloyalty
(but ne’er to conceal from Your knowing his heart’s deceit)
from human sight.
How oft, beyond counting, O Lord,
have I received
from the hand of Your saving-heart
the bread of Your Self-giving
only to betray You by living not by Your grace,
but only by my selfish choice?
By mine own question,
my self-inquisition, O Lord,
I ne’er am or can be done with Donne;
his words sure-giving voice to my heart’s incessant sorrowing:
Wilt Thou forgive that sin, where I begun,
Which is my sin, though it were done before?
Wilt Thou forgive those sins through which I run,
And do run still, though still I do deplore?
When Thou hast done, Thou hast not done,
For I have more.
Endnote: John Donne (1573-1631), English writer and metaphysical poet, Anglican cleric and renown preacher. A Hymn to God the Father, verse 1 (1623); my emphasis
Illustration: The Last Supper (La ultima Cena), Benjamin West, 1786