Note: As a personal, spiritual discipline, reviving my practice in the Lenten season of 2017, I revise the prayers I wrote then for each of the forty days of this Lent; each petition focusing on a theme, a concern weighing on my mind and heart or a care of my soul and spirit.
On self-knowledge, self-loathing, & self-love, again (with “alway”)…
O my Lord, I awakened this morning with this (deeper?) insight into a paradox of Your Being: The unconditionality of Your Love for me alway allows me, in my free-will, to seek my own way and ways to love me. Yet alway I fail. That, too, You allow.
Through this yet another paradox of the shattered mirror of my constant inability, this life-long debility to love my self may I see You more clearly. So that I – alway confident of Your Love, which alway is greater than the fault and guilt of my failure, day by day, more and more, until alway – surrender my judgment of myself to You.