Note: As a personal, spiritual discipline, reviving my practice in the Lenten season of 2017, I revise the prayers I wrote then for each of the forty days of this Lent; each petition focusing on a theme, a concern weighing on my mind and heart or a care of my soul and spirit.
On following Jesus and repentance (being a meditation on Matthew 4.17-22)…
O Jesus, as You called Your first disciples, so, throughout the ages, You continue to call, and, daily, hourly, moment by moment, You call unto me, saying, “Follow me.”
O Jesus, I relish these words of your summons; receiving them as confirmation that You love me and want me to be with You where You are.
Yet I confess that I am not fond of that first word with which You inaugurated Your earthly ministry. That first word, which Your call, “Follow me,” always follows. That first word that You also daily, hourly, moment by moment speak unto me: “Repent.”
Nevertheless, I believe, I know that following You requires repentance. My repentance. For never does my wavering heart, somehow, impose its separate will upon my steadfast God-fearing soul. Nay! I choose to follow my own path, thus, forsaking Your gracious leading and guiding.
So, O Jesus, I pray You, in Your Love and Desire for me, continue to call unto me, “Follow me,” always first saying, “Repent.”
Illustration: Jesus calling Peter and Andrew, James Tissot (1836-1902)