Note: As a personal, spiritual discipline, reviving my practice in the Lenten season of 2017, I revise the prayers I wrote then for each of the forty days of this Lent; each petition focusing on a theme, a concern weighing on my mind and heart or a care of my soul and spirit.
On waiting, doubting, and listening in prayer…
O Lord, some (most?) times, when I call Your Name, I don’t hear anything. (Not even Your still small Voice that, though the sheerest of silences, Elijah heard.)
Sometimes I wonder: Where are You? And sometimes, I confess, I wonder: Are You?
O Lord, in the face of my wonderment, my doubt, nevertheless, deep (deepest!) within me there is a yearning, insatiable and irresistible, to call out to You.
O Lord, in this, as I continue alway to listen for Your Voice, I have learned to listen also for the echo of my voice as it grows fainter by the instant until I no longer can hear the sound of it. In this, in faith, I believe that my plea has reached You.
Illustration: Elijah listening for the Voice of God, James Tissot (1836-1902)