A biblical, existential meditation on self-revelation
A man wrestled with Jacob until daybreak. When he did not prevail against Jacob, he struck him, putting Jacob’s hip out of joint, then, saying, “Let me go, for the day is breaking.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go, unless you bless me”…The man said, “You shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for you have striven with God and with humans, and have prevailed” (Genesis 32.24b-26, 28).
For now, we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known (1 Corinthians 13.12).
Through the night, we wrestled. Had it been but sport, I would have enjoyed our encounter and, after a time, retired. Yet, in the vigor and rigor of our contest, I knew there was more than a game, but life at stake. Hence, I held you fast, though your name I knew not.
Then, when dawn came, you would take wingéd flight, but not before blessing me.
You called me “Paulus”, meaning “small”, you said. Thereby, granting new meaning to my name as one, who, by necessity of nature, seeks union with the great God.
E’en more, you branded my brokenness in a way of truth that I, unable to deny, perforce had to claim and, therefore, laying bare the path forward toward my wholeness. Such that I met and knew myself, aye, my self again for the first time.
© 2021 PRA
Illustration: Jacob wrestling with the angel, Luca Giordano (1634-1705)
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